Healing...

Where do you find motivation when it's been gone for so long?

These past few years have been really tough on me. I think the biggest weight on my shoulders has to be the fact that I can't get pregnant. Well, I can get pregnant, I just haven't been able to yet. Chris and I have been trying for over 6 years now. It's pretty depressing to me. It's really taken over my life. I don't ever talk about it because I feel like no one really understands how I am feeling.

I want to be a mom so badly. I have tears in my eyes as I write this because it hurts my soul so badly that I am not able to have that joy.

I want to have a positive outlook on this situation, but how? It's so hard while you are going through it. Every time I see someone pregnant or with a new baby I get this ache in the pit of my stomach. I sit there and imagine it was me. I want to and need to be able to move on. What if I'm never able to get pregnant? I can't live this way forever.

I'm not looking for a pity party. I have needed to get this off my chest for such a long time. Maybe it's the start of my healing process.

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